A year ago I blogged about expectations and letting go as a result of a session I had with a client then immediately after, having my own situation arise that I needed to let go of.
It’s interesting how things come up in your life when you need a little reminder. In my last blog I talked about how this year I wanted to work on being more present. Not worrying/planning for the future and not getting caught up in the past. One aspect of that is letting go of expectations. I am a rule follower. I have certain ideals/expectations for myself, both professionally and personally.
The past couple of months have been….interesting for me personally. Nothing serious, just situations that I had no control over. There is nothing like barely being able to get out of bed to help put things into perspective.
While I had incredible difficulty admitting that I was actually sick, there came a point when I didn’t have a choice. I had to cancel clients and the group I facilitate for the first time in about 5 years. I had a really difficult time accepting that I couldn’t go to work. I felt I was letting people down (completely my issue). I struggled with this for the 3 days I was out of the office.
And then…..once I was no longer letting people down (my work week was over), I noticed a shift. A sense of relief, a weight was lifted. I did something that was really uncomfortable for me…..and it was okay. A breakthrough moment!
It was a breakthrough because in that moment I was able to let go of, not only the idea that I should go to work, but the realization of how my “rules” tend to keep me from feeling free to be sick, to live my life, to just be.
So with that, I am working on letting go of my rules that have me dissecting past moments and creating expectations for future moments. To notice what is important at that particular time. Is it really necessary to have everything planned out before trying something new? Just because you’ve always done something a certain way, isn’t it okay to try something different? Does it really matter if you change your plans, especially if no one even knows what those plans were?
A couple weeks ago I cancelled clients and group. This week in group I actually wore my yoga pants! Though it’s not something I plan on doing on a regular basis 😉 .
What can you work on letting go of to help create the life you want?